rude? am i ?

ok~ today.. i am soooooo not in good mood~ some one actually said i am very rude to a guy. am i? and she said she cant take it.. i dunno.. coz the way i treat the guy today is like the way i treat every guy that i know.. i couldnt see any different.. yeah, i liked him before.. like only one month.. or less then one month.. any way… that doesnt mean that now he with my frens now and i will treat him like crap. At least i dont think i treat him like shit.. may be the way i said was like serious.. but everything i had said today was just kidding…. well, if the guy feel anything.. my bad.. that is me. i wont change my personality coz what he said to my fren. what my fren told me was he said i am rude, and he cant be bother to talk with me.. NICE RIGHT? for real..any way, if my fren didnt told me about that i also already can feel it FROM HIS FACE. he wrote what he feel on his face “i am sooo not happy about the way you treat me” =_=

any way, my fren asked me try not to treat the guy rude… why would i listen to it ? i meant, why am i suppose to treat a guy sooo nice.. especially what he did to me before, and cant be bother talk with me today? i cant be girly girly like my fren, my personlity more like a guy.. i not going to get married in the future.. i will be myself alone in the future.. i cant be girly and let others ppl got chance to bully me, i need to be rough to protect myself.. i have learnt my lesson from my two ex bf.. i wont gave others ppl a single chance to bully me. no one i can believe to, no one can protect me.. EXCEPT MYSELF!

yea, may be i always treat my New Zealand fren like the way i treat my Malaysia fren.. but what can i do?! i growth in Malaysia.. not New Zealand.. my attitude is Malaysia style..my fren told me that, New Zealand and Malaysia different.. SO WHAT ?! i treat the guy still the same, no matter is New Zealand or Malaysia or China. Guy is still Guy. RITE?! but i cant believe this guy just cant have fun.. and he keep said me taking thing serious.. how bout him now?! who is the one taking thing serious now?! who is the one pissed today?

i told my mum about what happened today.. and my mum said she felt like the guy actually braking me and my fren frenship.. i not sure is it real?! i pretty sure me and my frenship wont change anything even coz of this guy..coz i believe her, i know she will know what is the right thing she should do.. be fair to both side.. right?!

may be the way i talked to the guy today kinda rude.. but everything i said today just kidding, i believe when i said everything today was with a SMILE FACE. well, my fren said i dont.. she said i look serious and rude..and she said whatever i said to the guy today like so straight forward and rude.. i know she didnt try to stand either both us side.. but after i read her blog before i start write my blog, i kinda felt i actually giving her trouble.. even i didnt mean to~

when i have nothing to do when work time.. i thinking, how the way i treat a guy usually~ that are what i figure out :

1. i like to hit guy.

2. i like to tease guy.

3. i like to say guy dumb.

4. i like to say guy useless.

5. i like to say guy yuck

6. i like to kick guy.

7. i like to say guy cant be trust.

8. i like to force guy to pay me for meal in serious way, but kidding for real.

9. i hit guy eventho is the first day we know each other. (EXCEPT I SICK! LOL)

10. LOL i cant think further more.. LOL

is that rude?! i dont think so.. i dont think when guy and guy are fren, they will treat each other nicely.. why would guy can be that ? WHY CANT I?? well, after today.. i dont think i will actually meet with him any more..

Damn, i am now sooooooooo miss my malaysia fren…i miss my old time… old time always is the best…

MY DEAR MALAYSIA FREN..CAN YOU TELL ME? WHEN I TREAT YOU ALL.. AM I RUDE? YOU GUYS KNOW ME FOR SO MANY YEARS ALREADY.. CAN YOU GUY PLEASE LEAVE COMMENT AND TELL ME ?!