Supervisor

Supervisor? wat is the first thing came into your mind when i talked about this word.. SUPERVISOR

my manager asked me to be supervisor when i was jst worked at there for around 3 months.. and she asked me so many times already, but i never said yes.. coz i am so not confidence to be one. and, i dont like the people that will bossy me around.. those senior supervisor will always asked the new supervisor to do everything and when the senior supervisor is the one who will get the pay when they WORK NOTHING.

this is the only reason why i keep reject my manager when she offered me... last friday? if i didnt remember wrong. Moana asked me either my manager asked me do i want to be supervisor or not.. and i was like.."nah.. not this time.. why?" and Moana said she will tell me when my manager went home..

so, wat Moana told me was... my manager want to let a new staff who worked less than one month to be supervisor.. my manager told her idea to Moana.. and Moana vey not happy about this.. and Moana said i'm the best person to be supervisor compare to the new staff.. So, Moana told my manager that she will talked about this with me.. and Moana keep asked me to be supervisor, and asked me not to worry too much.. she said if i dunno anything i can jst ask her or Flavia for help...

i talked about this with keat and my parents.. my parent said its doesnt matter either am i a supervisor or not.. as long i am happy wat am i doing... and keat said the samethings as well.. but, keat suggest me to have a try... coz this is a good chance to have some leadership and management skill.. even tho is not that much.. but still consider HAVE SOME experience before...

Ivy, one of my closest workmate. She worked as supervisor at there.. and i always heard from her about how the senior supervisor bully her, gave all the jobs that suppose to done by the senior supervisor.. and she always got scold from the another senior supervisor coz she done something that she not suppose to done as a normal supervisor.. hmm..

yesterday i already told my manager that i want to have a try.. and she was so happy about that.. but.. why am i so moody after i decided to be supervisor???

Predators

have OB today at 12pm.. i was in the same tutorial with Stacey, Josh and Jp. This time, i finally saw Jp in the class. we jst said hi to each other, and we didnt really talked in the class.. LOL.. i knew this will happen, i mean i knew we wont talked as much as we chat on msn and facebook.. ^^

any way, after class.. i walked to Imax food court to meet up keat. he was with his bro and his fren together.. but when i arrived there, he jst ditched them.. so sad.. ^^ we went to Mcd for our lunch, and he asked me to txt may sze came Mcd to meet up.. ^^ when i txted may sze, she was with Julie, Lisa. when i saw them came to Mcd.. i was like “SHIT” you know why? coz Keat only bought present for May sze and me.. but not the rest.. so.. is kinda rude…….

keat and me had our lunch in MCd.. may sze and the rest were waiting for tsi tsi and phia to come over and go for lunch together… me and keat were waiting the time to watch Predators. OMG, all of them like hungers.. kept eat mine and keat’s food.. and made me dont feel full at all..>.< but i cant be bother to line up and get extra food… and also after they gone, me and keat went to cinema to get our ticket and went to watch movie..

this is the first time ever i went into the cinema like 15 minutes earlier.. when we entry the cinema there was like NO ONe there.. we chatted in the cinema while waiting as well..hmm.. Keat told me Predators might will be scary.. that why he want me to watch with him.. but, actually.. NOT at all~! this movie is the most bored movie ever i had seen in my life.. oh wait.. and Zombie Land as well.. LOL…

after movie, we went down to Imax food court waiting for may sze and phia finish their movie…both of us were  tired and sleepy after wathed the boring movie.. that why this time we were cant be bother walked around and look for gal this time. LOL` i think this is the first time ever.. LOL we sat there and chatted many many things again.. until may sze and the rest came down to meet us..

keat have to wait for his sister to bring him back.. and all of us were going to catched the bus.. so keat walked to Mecury Hotel to wait for his sister.. and phia wanted to go Wendy to buy some drink.. and julie bought a sockings from an asian shop on our way up to but stop.. and.. we jst cathed the bus home ^^.. and in the bus.. OMG~! our group were sooo damn loud~! our conversation mostly about BLACK AFRICAN, ASIAN, DODGY TOPIC… tsi tsi keep try to explain that she is not BLACK.. but BROWN.. LOL~! cant really remember everything on details.. only this part.. coz this is the most topic we keep talked about.. LOL.. i bet the rest of the ppls in the bus will felt us very annoying coz we were REALLY LOUD~! honestly, i LOVE TSI TSI.. she is AWESOME~! lol.. no matter where is she.. she always brought us lots of fun ~^^

i was planned to start reading my OB text book today.. but.. hmm.. my LAZY WORM came into my mind again.. and i ended up jst on msn chatting with keat, Facebook and blogging again.. haiz.. and.. i am suppose to sleep early coz tomolo i have to wake up at 6am to catch the 7am bus to uni.. haiz.. got class at 8am.. so damn early when i havent really get used to sleep early after watced sooo many game of world cup.. >.<  but coz of my dear brother keat’s birthday is tomolo.. more like 2o minutes more.. i waiting till 12:00am to send him a birthday txt to wish him happy birthday.. ^^

he is soo nice that bought me present from malaysia.. got the keyboard rest cushion, be@rbrick, and one key chain.. ^^

and now.. i think i should go to brusg my teeth and wash my face to get ready to sleep.. so.. when the time exactly 12:00am.. i can jst txt him, and say good nite in the same time.. LOL…

Happy birthday brother~! ^^

EXPENSIVE Text Book

today i was late in class for 3 minutes ^^ but my lecturer already started.. so when i walked into the class.. i feel sooo damn weird.. every one looked at me when i open the door.. OMG.. never feel this way in uni before.. >.< any way, i know a gal name Kelly from class.. we worked in pair today.. coz we have to find what the three hotel that we like.. both of us dont really have any favourite hotel.. so we google it.. our lecturer taught us some feature of google that helped us search through the information much easier., and also how hyperlink the information into power point..any way, both of us found out ALOT of unique hotel.. like ICE HOTEL, DOG BARK PARK INN, and etc.. these two are my favourite.. i really want to go there one day.. ^^ ICE HOTEL

Dog Bark Park Inn

Class finish early 30 minutes.. and i have to wait may sze for another one and the half hours. so while waiting her, i went to Library and print all my note out for this week. and then walked to symond street for look my hospitality text book.  i dont want to buy new text books, coz one of them cost me $139 and $120… so i was expecting to get some second hand book from Volume 1 book shop.. but i couldnt find the shop, i txted every one about this.. and lisa came to symond street to meet me up and bring me to the volume 1 book shop..you know why i cant find the book shop? COZ they CLOSE DOWN already.. and now the shop became chinese shop.. LOL~ so, i walked back to WF building with lisa to drop her off.. and went to UBS in AUT to buy the text book.

guess what?! $211 for two text books~!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i bought new text book for Organisational Behaviour which cost me $139. and a second hand book for ICT cost me $85 .. and i got 10% discount for it.. so.. $211~! OMG~! and thesw two books are not even THICK~!!! haiz.. uni uni uni.. THIS IS UNI~ RITE? haiz…….

 

First Day back.. ^^

yeah~! start from today will be my 2nd year of uni.. omg.. finally 2nd year~! but, i still doing my core papers for both degree.i always feel myself sooo damn slow.. i am bit late for starting my uni in my age compare to others.. yeah.. JST ABIT.. OK?! any way, and all the classmate who start in the same semester with me had already finish all of their core papers and taking majoring this semester.. >.< you know why i having this feeling today? Coz… today in two of my lecturer.. i saw so many first semester student.. and this does really made me feel sooo damn old in some how.. LOL some of my malaysia school mate, fren, or whatever who are same age with me.. many of them finish their degree course, and study master, or this year are their last year.. ai soon.. omg.. is his 4th year already… see?! dont you think i am slow now?

today i got Organisational Behaviour and Interpersonal Skills for my first lecturer… well, i thought i will going to see Jp. But i couldnt get to see him coz i cant find him, he said he saw me sitting with Josh (Malaysian class mate). even until we finish lecturer i still didnt get to see him.. >.< This is sooo not fair.. i think he might saw me soo fat and doesnt want to talk with me any more.. LOL any way, cant believe i am in same tutorial class with Josh and Stacey..as well as Jp.. 4 of us are in the same tutorial class..is quite happy at least i know some one in the tutotial class eventho me and Stacey used to have some argument before.. ^^ but today Stacey, me and josh sat together in our lecturer..like we never argue before.. LOL

after this i have 2 hours break, i was waiting for flavia and may sze to meet with me at 3pm.. which mean i have to be myself for one hour.. i was soooo damn bored, i kept walked up and down of queen street.. look at pretty gals.. haiz.. so jaelous most of them are sooo pretty ler.. >.< and then i txted Jake and asked where is him.. and i asked him to company me till may sze and flavia came.. ^^ when i txted him he was in his school.. but he sooo nice that he jst came to company after received my txt… we walked around for a while.. and met up with his fren, they wanted to buy some tools for their assignment..so they “FORCE” me bring them to AUT bookstore have alook.. while the time was almost 3pm.. >.< honestly, compare to Jake’s fren, Jake is the BEST  AMONG THE WORST.. LOL.. all of his fren look.. so…. KAMPUNG.. and the way they talked.. OMG.. i cant understand their MANDARIN with the stupid TOUNGE..

after brought they to the book store.. i went back down again to meet up with flavia and may sze for FOOD. i was so hungry coz i didnt have any breakfast and lunch yet.. and i was poor .. i forgot to transfer money into my cheque account, after i spent soooo much on DVD drama and movie and also some CD.. haiz… its used up my two weeks sallary.. OMG.. i wonder what my parent will do at me if they know about this.. since i have no money.. this time.. May sze turn to get me lunch~! THANKs MAY SZE.. ^^ while may sze lining up and buy the food, i told flavia about D’s Story..

after that i went to my 2nd lecture… Information Communication Technology.. BLOODY HELL~! this class such a big class ever i have~! is like almost 2oo student in this class.. but so sad i have no one else except Christina.. when me and her didnt talked that much compare to others class mate.. >.< i kinda alone in the class coz Christina was busy talked with her fren.. and this class… IS HOT~!!!! 200 ppls in the class, and there dont have windows open, no air condition.. omg.. i was sweating eventho is winter now..that time i was like a pig who keep sweating… haiz…and.. ICT sound.. bored for me.. >.< in the whole hour in the lecture, i was txting with keat and may sze ^^ not even listen to the lecturer.. i know this such a bad way of starting my new semetser.. >.< dont worry.. i will pay more attention tomolo morning in tutorial which much more important then lecture.. ^^ 

after class i met up with may sze and Julie.. we helped Julie look for shoes.. is so hard to find her shoes.. i mean.. when we found something nice, they dont have her size.. and we finally found one that is nice and have her size.. but the price too expensive when the shoes’s bling bling part some of then came off.. and the shop owner didnt really want to reduce the price.. so.. julie told them she will think about it first and might go back and get it.. so when we continue look for another shop, me and may sze found nice bag which in red colour.. both of us like the red colour one.. and the bag quality is like jacket fabric which is really nice to hug ~~ the shop only got one red colour and one coffe colour.. both of them are ok.. but, red is soo much better compare to the coffee colour one.. but this time i let may sze have the red one.. she always let me to buy something that she like.. but this time, i will jst let her.. so i get the coffee colour, she got the red one.. AND~! i bought another cap~^^ you know how bad am i ? i have no money in my bank account at the moment, and i still bought something and asked may sze to help me pay first..

that all for today i guess.. tomolo have ICT tutorial at 10am.. haiz.. i will feel lonely tomolo in tutorial class….   

 

Uni again..^^

YEAH~!!! tomolo back to uni again.. ^^ i love going to uni, but ONLY ATTEND to class  not assignment ^^  i hope will have any hot guy in my class ^^ well, nothing suprising, i have class every days.. but its kinda annoying that i have class every thursday and friday 8am in the morning… >.< this mean i have to wake up at 6am and catch the bus at 7am..NONONONONO!!!!!!!!!!

this semester i taking Globalisation and Business Enterprise, Hospitality  Information Communication Technology and Hospitality Organisational Behaviour and Interpersonal Skills. i know, NONE of them sound fun.. >.< and sound bit.. hmm.. bored? any way, i will need to find a way to made them became “FUN” if not, i 100% sure in the end of the semester, i will worry about my result again..and i cant believe that last semester i got all B for my 3 papers.. ^^YEAH~!!! eventho is not wat i want.. but, is already good enough for me since i didnt really put more effort. and this semester..~! I CANNOT BE LAZY AGAIN ^^

btw, saw him at work. i bet he couldnt wake up in the morning. ^^ coz when i saw him came to work, he look such a messed ^^ but, so CUTE in some how.. LOL.. well, he is not good looking, but when i saw him with his messy hair, sleepy face and his untidy uniform^^he look like a kid that jst got up from bed and dunno what going on ^^ i laughed straight away when i saw him.. but, i not sure he saw me laughed at him or not.. but, he seems like he have bad mood..and today at work quite busy.. so we dont really met each other at work..and we didnt talked at all today.. i mean not even a “hi”. and can you believe this? it cause me upset for the whole day ..

break my promise..

我又吃言了，我办不到我自己对自己许下的承诺。刚才闲着没事做，所以到自己的部落格读我以前写下来的文章…看看以前自己以前所发生过的事情…我读到其中一个，是说好我要忘记他的。可是，现在的我好象根本没有努力的去把他给忘记了;反而是更加的喜欢他了。

我不知道，我真的不知道为什么当我开始慢慢的深入了解他的时候。我知道了他很多我不喜欢的一面，不过我的心还是可以这样的喜欢他。我非常的清除象他这样的男生不是我心里想要的。不管是外表还是内在，都不是我的理想的对象。可是为什么？为什么我还是这样的喜欢他？

我尝试顺自然，就把我和他的关系渐渐的变成回以前同事的关系。可是当我决定要顺其自然的时候，他却不断地在我面前出现，不断的对我体贴。上次在朋友的生日party,然后去滑雪的时候。我不知道是他的无意还是有意，他在某些事情上面真的对我很体贴。所以，直到我知道我喜欢他开始。我看清楚自己，其实我跟其他的女生是没有两样的。我也希望有男生对我体贴，温柔，关心…

以前的我根本就不在乎这些东西，所以谈了几次恋爱都从来不觉得体贴，温柔，关心是很重要的。不知道是不是因为没有几个人真的把我当女生看待，所以他所做的一切会让我动心。有时候我在想，其实可能他所做的一切对于他来说并没有任何意义的。只是普通的绅士风度而已，而我却动心了。我想，我会喜欢它他也是这些原因吧？那么，我现在是喜欢他的人？还是喜欢他对我做过的事情让我动心？

我不知道这是不是喜欢一个人的时候会做的事情。

每一次我上班的时候我都希望我会碰见他，不过每一次碰见他的时候我都会假装我没有见到他直到他自己主动跟我打招呼。

我对他的背影是特别的敏感，无论他走到哪，我都会很敏感的知道是他。尤其是每一次他经过我的时候，我更加敏感的知道是他经过我，而不是其他人。

甚至于他的车，每当我搭巴士的时候或出门的时候。我对根他一样颜色或款式的车都会特别的敏感。就是很希望可以跟他很有缘分的不约而遇…当然，这些都不曾发生过..

有时候当我没有客人的时候，我会偷偷的找机会把客人不要的东西放回架上。目的就是为了可以碰到他然后聊几句。再要不然就是会静静的待在我的counter而偷偷的看着他。

每一次根他谈天的时候，我的心里是尴尬的要命。可是，我却表现出我对他跟其他的朋友一样，没有分别。就是爱讽刺他几句，欺负他。

每一次上网的时候，我都会到facebook看看他的profile，看看他的照片. 然后每一次都在问自己为什么会喜欢这样的一个男生？幸好他从来都不完那些top followers application，要不然..我想我肯定会榜上有名的.

当他在我的profile上留言的时候，我都会特别开心的。无论他留言的东西关于什么，我就是会开心。

你们是不是觉得我很幼稚？不可否认，我所做的一切连我自己都觉得自己好幼稚。

可是，这些都是我那个时候很自然就会做出来的。而我自己觉得并没有什么必要逼自己阻止自己不去做这些幼稚的事情。我也不知道为什么我那个时候会做出这些事情出来。

那天滑雪的时候，我很清楚的感觉到他对的确有一点的尴尬的。我很清楚地感觉得到我们之间真的有尴尬的感觉的。当我根他其他的朋友合照的时候，我们大家都站到非常的靠近. 虽然我是先认识他，才他的朋友。可是，当我和他合照的时候我们两个人距离站得好远…就感觉像我们之间是第一天认识的…

当他跪下来帮我穿滑雪的鞋子的时候，我们两个人距离好近。说实话..那个时候的我心跳真的有加速. >.< 我从来没有心跳加速的感觉过的，可是在那一杀那的时候我心…真的跳好快..>.< 可是，他那一天晚上给我的感觉是他不断的把握推向他朋友。我不知道是我自己想太多了还是什么，我就是一直感觉到他在制造机会给我和他的朋友。开口闭口都是他朋友的名字…他绝对不会知道我那个时候的心情是怎样子的.

我听我朋友说那天晚上在回家的路程中，我睡着了。而且，我还躺在他朋友的肩膀上睡着的。我朋友还告诉我他从望后镜看着我很久…这代表什么吗？我应该开心？还是尴尬？

 

I Dont W@nt To be AloNE

just before i went to sleep, i went to facebook and look any updates of my frens.. and, i saw a really sad news…

Pn. Loo.. one of my favourite teacher in malaysia..  she had cancer, and she passed away yesterday nite… me and her aint that close like my others fren. but, i like her.. she is a real good teacher.. kind.. without her, i think my english still in SHIT… she is the one who taught me english, and keep force me to mix fren with elaine chea.. coz she want me to improve my english.

i know i might did something that made her angry on me before.. coz i know i never is a good student that will listen every thing of what the teacher said…but i really missed all everything happened before.. i’m sooo glad that i took a photo with her before when i went back to malaysia and visit my teacher.. and this is the only and also the last photo i have with her…

the more i thought of her, the more i feel sad now.. i cried so bad now.. i need some one that can calm me down.. the person i think of, is keat.. but he is not online.. then the 2nd person i thought of D, but well..i dont think he care about me.. i txted him and told him i in real bad mood.. but he didnt asked me what happened.. jst told me that he have something to do tomolo around 4pm.. so he coming to my house to pick me up around 5pm then go to snow planet straight away..

so.. you know what my feeling now? i also dunno what is my feeling now… for real.. i am really sad about my teacher passed away.. and i txted him and try to talk with him.. but he not even care about what am i being not happy with.. and i jst felt myself so damn stupid.. then i actually thought of Jp and may sze..hmm.. i dunno why am i thought of Jp.. but i jst want to find him to talk.. but both of them didnt replied either.. i guess both of them were sleeping…

this is what usually happen.. whenever i need some one.. NO ONE will be with me.. NO ONE~ NEVER in my life as well..i am not expecting any fun for snow planet tomolo.. all i need now, is some one that could let me hug.. and let me cry for no matter i need…i dont want to be alone.. now…

 

Sister’s Birthday + Movie

Went to city to meet Jake for movie and shopped for my sister birthday present.. this stupid guy was late like 30 minutes ~! >_< so i went to shop by myself looking for my sister birthday present… i bought every thing just before he came.. what a pig….. lol~ i know.. i RARELY didnt get mad on a guy that came late…any way, he is a nice frens, always help me wat every i asked him to. ^^ unlike SOMEONE ELSE~! haiz.. that why  i didnt really get mad on him tho.. ^^

any way, went to a chinese restaurant for our lunch.. this is the 2nd time went to this chinese restaurant.. i dont really this restaurant honestly…the first time was my 20th birthday.. the day with May sze, Arisa, Peter, Adeline, and Kevin.. and i still remember none of us finish all the food.. and this time happened the same thing as well.. me and Jake didnt finish our food and we were full like hell..

after this, we continue shopped for my sister birthday present.. and we ended up bought some thing from Smith and Caughey’s..of course not PERFUME lar..~! i jsut bought her a kimmidoll bag tag.. so cute ler.. ^^ AND THEN~! we went to starbucks to sit down for drink and chat.. i  knew i said we were FULL.. but i want to drink starbucks.. so.. i force him to come with me emmmmmm~ SO NICE~ i mean STARBUCKS is soo nice.. ^^ and we sat there almost 1.5 hours.. and we chat everything.. yeah.. i also get know more about his fren.. haiz..   i also dunno is a good thing or bad things.. we saw one asian couple, the bf taking photo of his gf.. and the gf pose those scary pose.. so i asked jake try to pose like the gf and let me to be the “bf” and take the photo.. lol

any ways… we went to watch The Karate Kid. This is a nice, funny movie..

i like the way of Jackie chan taught  Dre Parker Kung Fu, so unique and funny..lol.. “take off the jacket, put it on, take off the jacket, put it on the ground…”  lol~! and the Dre jst have to repeat this again and again..lol

when movie finish is around 6pm.. so we walked to a dairy shop and bought the drink he LOVE to drink…some thing name SWEET HONEY LEMON~! the bottle is sooo cute.. and.. its expiry date is 1.11.10.. YEAH~! my birthday~! this is my 2nd bottle.. and i actually kept these two bottle for collection.. i mean.. my birthday wor.. why not i keep for fun ler.. ? LOL

after that we jst walked to my bus stop.. and went home for my sister dinner..my sister dont like to celebrate birthday.. so, we jst went to mac donald and ate dinner.. and then back home for cake… ^^

honestly, if i am my sister.. i will be DAMN SAD.. coz i dont want my birthday jst being simple and without any fun. and i bet i will cry like hell if my birthday celebrate like hers.. but i guess is a good thing rite? coz she wont demand soo much for her birthday.. unlike me..

hmm.. by the way.. my dear brother- keat’s birthday coming soon ler… havent buy him any present yet.. SHIT~!

 

$uCks…

sucks~! Sucks~! sucks~! honestly.. Sucks…~! i just want to have fun and crazy for one whole day.. just like what i did in malaysia before..

i just want to go out one day with my frens and have fun.. why is this sooo hard to made it happen? some want to go rainbow ends.. some want to go snow  planet…and their reasons are, cant be bother lar.. no money lar.. boring lar.. not interested lar…and others reason..no one plan.. so i made this plan up.. they were the one who said dont want too expensive.. dont want to go too far.. so i choose  the closest one lar.. and i do my plan lar.. this is my first time to plan.. but, too bad.. i guess i am failed. 

i know is crazy that going to rainbow end and snow planet in one day.. and is like from the morning till nite time…. i also know i am the only one who want to do this… and different group of fren want to do different things.. i cant cut myself into two part and go both rite?

i dunno why am i so not happy about this.. is this because i dont have a group of frens that having same intereted like what i have in malaysialer?! wait.. i should know how my nz frens act…i shouldnt be complain much rite? F***!! then why am i still pissed ler?!

well, i can go rainbow end with my other group of fren, then half way go to snow planet.. but.. my problem is.. how am i suppose to go from rainbow end to snow planet?? i cant drive.. no transport… >_< seprate to two different day??  uni is going to start soon in coming 2 weeks time… so how? how? how ? how ?

and guess what? i just told off by some one that i not even seen him before.. he said i am not well organised… WTF?! i mean.. i plan.. BUT~! NO ONE LIKE MY PLAN and NO ONE GIVE ME THEIR REAL ANSWER EITHER THEY GOING OR NOT~! how am i suppose to be WELL ORGANISED LER? you teach me lar~! well~! if he dont want to go.. i dont care~! i just want to have fun with my fren. i just dont want him to join ANY MORE~!

PLEASE LAR! dont ruin my day AGAIN lar..~! i jst started having some nice day only ler..~_~ i need to CALM DOWN  now.. later still need to watch world cup one.. my BRAZIL… PLEASE DON’T LET Me DOWN AGAIN~!!

 

B@d things and H@ppy ThiNgs

aiya… finally.. sick.. AGAIN lor.. man~! dont know what wrong with me after came to NZ.. always get sick… but i guess this time is not too bad compare to last time lar…who should i blame? world cup ? coz made me dont have enough sleep? or my sister? she is the one who spread all the virus to our whole family to get sick? or… nz weather? keep changing almost every day.. oh well.. the only thing i could blame is… i am WEAK~! rite? 

any way…many thing happen these days…Bad things are all related to my best frens..Keat struggle his feeling with his ex… may sze is very not ok now coz of allen… xindy was moody for some reason..lucky, xindy is fine now.. Keat.. should be alrite AT THE MOMENT i think? May sze.. haiz..

this gal…i really dunno what can i do to help her.. i mean i am not that type of person that cheer ppl up.. and i bet she already knew what will i talk to her.. Some time i really dunno what does she thinnking.. she didnt really tell me when she is in bad mood and didnt share her problem to me.. she more like hiding her feeling.. i always can feel she is in bad mood.. BUT i didnt know why is she in bad mood.. until i read her blog.. haiz..for real, only time can help her now…

to may sze: 加油咯~！for real, just find me any time.. no matter what time.. if you need some one to talk with.. just call me you know my house phone number.. so.jst call me .. UNTIL i AWAKE.. i know the feeling, i know its really very hurt.. but you really need forget about every sad things and start over again your new life.. in this world is not only him only..and you are not breathing JUST FOR HIM, you are breath JUST FOR YOURSELF.. there are still have more better guy than him.. you just havent meet your mr right lar… believe me lar.. when my first time feel heart broken or hurt.. i also said the exactly same thing as what you said before.. this is what we really need to learn or experience for our life.. this is how we get mature and grow up…you not like me, i know you wont let your “trend” decreasing.. rite? so i sure you will a better one than allen. its only when your heart is forgot about allen, and ready to open for others guys. AU still got many HOt guy one lar.. just dont forget to get me one.. ^^

so basicly, nothing really good things is happened. except~! i am planning to go rainbow end and snow plannet next saturday. i really very jaelous all of my malaysia fren, whenever they got holiday.. they sure going some where for fun one.. me ler? haiz…… is so hard to find some where is nice to play in nz.. i mean Nz  more like scenic and taking photos activities.. of course.. i will like to go some where the scenery is nice and take photo… but i dont think my frens will like it lor.. plus… Transport is one of the problem…my  highs school group will prefer go to city for movie, lunch, shopping, sticker photo, beach (but too bad.. now is winter ler…) and what else? karaoke? i will prefer go with my workmate or others who sing chinese song lor…

some time i do hate Facebook. WHY? coz i always saw my malaysian frens having fun time for gathering, traveling, bbq, yum cha… etc..and i always wish i can be in the photo.. seriously..i seriously miss my malaysia frens…

and something also.. H@PPY THINGS happen ler.. well, he asked me out.. but too bad.. not asked me out FOR DATE.. haiz.. but oh well.. is good enough for me already… BUT~! i am going to meet with his fren this coming saturday… and at nite i have to celebrate my sister bday.. so… i not sure am i able to meet with him.. DAMN IT lar~! how am i suppose to meet both of them at once ler when both of them want to do differents things? fine, i will try to firgure it out tomolo when i see him at work…seriously, i really wish i can meet with him.. ^^hmm.. i mean.. get to know more about him lar..

and this, i dunno is this a good thing or bad thing. yeah, my ex- Kean txted me these two days. we chat like we are very normal fren. it seems like nothing happened between us.. he asked me not to give him back the money..chat about our work, chat about my family, chat about my 烂桃花…seriously, i never thought we could chat like this.. i know this is what i wanted to all the time~ i really wish we could be frens.. but when i txted with him.. everything just like a video keep playing in my brain.. good thing, bad thing, sad thing, angry thing.. and also.. HURT. when i txted with him, i just remember how much hurt i get from all of my bf  before..but all the “HURT”  changed me everything.. changed me became much more mature but nervous being in relationship…

does any one can tell me, is this a good thing or bad thing ? will any bad thing happen at the end like before after i contact with him? should we forgot about every things from the passed? and just be a normal fren?