B@d things and H@ppy ThiNgs

aiya… finally.. sick.. AGAIN lor.. man~! dont know what wrong with me after came to NZ.. always get sick… but i guess this time is not too bad compare to last time lar…who should i blame? world cup ? coz made me dont have enough sleep? or my sister? she is the one who spread all the virus to our whole family to get sick? or… nz weather? keep changing almost every day.. oh well.. the only thing i could blame is… i am WEAK~! rite? 

any way…many thing happen these days…Bad things are all related to my best frens..Keat struggle his feeling with his ex… may sze is very not ok now coz of allen… xindy was moody for some reason..lucky, xindy is fine now.. Keat.. should be alrite AT THE MOMENT i think? May sze.. haiz..

this gal…i really dunno what can i do to help her.. i mean i am not that type of person that cheer ppl up.. and i bet she already knew what will i talk to her.. Some time i really dunno what does she thinnking.. she didnt really tell me when she is in bad mood and didnt share her problem to me.. she more like hiding her feeling.. i always can feel she is in bad mood.. BUT i didnt know why is she in bad mood.. until i read her blog.. haiz..for real, only time can help her now…

to may sze: 加油咯~！for real, just find me any time.. no matter what time.. if you need some one to talk with.. just call me you know my house phone number.. so.jst call me .. UNTIL i AWAKE.. i know the feeling, i know its really very hurt.. but you really need forget about every sad things and start over again your new life.. in this world is not only him only..and you are not breathing JUST FOR HIM, you are breath JUST FOR YOURSELF.. there are still have more better guy than him.. you just havent meet your mr right lar… believe me lar.. when my first time feel heart broken or hurt.. i also said the exactly same thing as what you said before.. this is what we really need to learn or experience for our life.. this is how we get mature and grow up…you not like me, i know you wont let your “trend” decreasing.. rite? so i sure you will a better one than allen. its only when your heart is forgot about allen, and ready to open for others guys. AU still got many HOt guy one lar.. just dont forget to get me one.. ^^

so basicly, nothing really good things is happened. except~! i am planning to go rainbow end and snow plannet next saturday. i really very jaelous all of my malaysia fren, whenever they got holiday.. they sure going some where for fun one.. me ler? haiz…… is so hard to find some where is nice to play in nz.. i mean Nz  more like scenic and taking photos activities.. of course.. i will like to go some where the scenery is nice and take photo… but i dont think my frens will like it lor.. plus… Transport is one of the problem…my  highs school group will prefer go to city for movie, lunch, shopping, sticker photo, beach (but too bad.. now is winter ler…) and what else? karaoke? i will prefer go with my workmate or others who sing chinese song lor…

some time i do hate Facebook. WHY? coz i always saw my malaysian frens having fun time for gathering, traveling, bbq, yum cha… etc..and i always wish i can be in the photo.. seriously..i seriously miss my malaysia frens…

and something also.. H@PPY THINGS happen ler.. well, he asked me out.. but too bad.. not asked me out FOR DATE.. haiz.. but oh well.. is good enough for me already… BUT~! i am going to meet with his fren this coming saturday… and at nite i have to celebrate my sister bday.. so… i not sure am i able to meet with him.. DAMN IT lar~! how am i suppose to meet both of them at once ler when both of them want to do differents things? fine, i will try to firgure it out tomolo when i see him at work…seriously, i really wish i can meet with him.. ^^hmm.. i mean.. get to know more about him lar..

and this, i dunno is this a good thing or bad thing. yeah, my ex- Kean txted me these two days. we chat like we are very normal fren. it seems like nothing happened between us.. he asked me not to give him back the money..chat about our work, chat about my family, chat about my 烂桃花…seriously, i never thought we could chat like this.. i know this is what i wanted to all the time~ i really wish we could be frens.. but when i txted with him.. everything just like a video keep playing in my brain.. good thing, bad thing, sad thing, angry thing.. and also.. HURT. when i txted with him, i just remember how much hurt i get from all of my bf  before..but all the “HURT”  changed me everything.. changed me became much more mature but nervous being in relationship…

does any one can tell me, is this a good thing or bad thing ? will any bad thing happen at the end like before after i contact with him? should we forgot about every things from the passed? and just be a normal fren?