I Dont W@nt To be AloNE

just before i went to sleep, i went to facebook and look any updates of my frens.. and, i saw a really sad news…

Pn. Loo.. one of my favourite teacher in malaysia..  she had cancer, and she passed away yesterday nite… me and her aint that close like my others fren. but, i like her.. she is a real good teacher.. kind.. without her, i think my english still in SHIT… she is the one who taught me english, and keep force me to mix fren with elaine chea.. coz she want me to improve my english.

i know i might did something that made her angry on me before.. coz i know i never is a good student that will listen every thing of what the teacher said…but i really missed all everything happened before.. i’m sooo glad that i took a photo with her before when i went back to malaysia and visit my teacher.. and this is the only and also the last photo i have with her…

the more i thought of her, the more i feel sad now.. i cried so bad now.. i need some one that can calm me down.. the person i think of, is keat.. but he is not online.. then the 2nd person i thought of D, but well..i dont think he care about me.. i txted him and told him i in real bad mood.. but he didnt asked me what happened.. jst told me that he have something to do tomolo around 4pm.. so he coming to my house to pick me up around 5pm then go to snow planet straight away..

so.. you know what my feeling now? i also dunno what is my feeling now… for real.. i am really sad about my teacher passed away.. and i txted him and try to talk with him.. but he not even care about what am i being not happy with.. and i jst felt myself so damn stupid.. then i actually thought of Jp and may sze..hmm.. i dunno why am i thought of Jp.. but i jst want to find him to talk.. but both of them didnt replied either.. i guess both of them were sleeping…

this is what usually happen.. whenever i need some one.. NO ONE will be with me.. NO ONE~ NEVER in my life as well..i am not expecting any fun for snow planet tomolo.. all i need now, is some one that could let me hug.. and let me cry for no matter i need…i dont want to be alone.. now…