友情和爱情

人，是不是长大了想的事情也会复杂呢？

人，是不是长大了就会有这些不重要的感情问题呢？

人，是不是长大了就会渐渐的不记得要怎样让自己开心呢？

人，是不是长大了之后顾虑的东西也比较多？

人，是不是长大了之后在人与人之间的相处不会像以前小的时候那样单纯吗？

这几天心里的有些想法很想把它们说出来的。不过，每当话到嘴边的时候不知道为什么还是说不出来。我的表达能力真的好糟糕，因为我不知道要用什么字体来表达我想表达的想法。

我不知道自己是不是因为单身几年了所以会很渴望一个男朋友在我身边。还是我只是在羡慕身边的朋友都是成双成对的。我不知道。

我一个男生朋友跟我一个女生朋友在搞暧昧的时候我的心里会觉得怪怪的呢？虽然我清楚知道他们两个是在开玩笑的，因为我们三个都是好朋友。不过，我的心里就是有种难以解释的感觉呢？会不会是我心理作祟？占有欲强呢?我想要我那个男生朋友只是对我一个女生好而已呢？我知道我对这个男生朋友并没有爱意的，只有兄弟之情。可是，我会有这样的想法，是不是很自私？是不是很要不得？

我是有喜欢一个男生，他告诉过我他喜欢别的女生。所以我知道我跟他是不会有结果的。现在每一次上班都会碰到他，碰到他的时候我也没有象以前那样不好意思的面对他。而且我还可以若无其事似的跟他开玩笑，打打闹闹。以前我曾经尝试避开他的，不知情的他还时常关心我是不是我的心情不好所以没有跟他玩闹。当然，他不知道我是喜欢他的。他也不知道他这样关心的行为是会增加我对他的感觉。

这里的一位好朋友，让我更加的自卑。很多男生都会喜欢她，曾经有一次有一个男生，本来是先喜欢我的…不过看到我这个好朋友的时候就喜欢上我这个好朋友。我知道她是漂亮，拥有好身材…这些都是男生喜欢的..我都知道. 不过，只有我的心里知道..其实我是非常在乎那个男生喜欢上我的朋友的.我并不是在乎那个男生..而我是非常害怕以后我喜欢的男生也会陆续的喜欢上她，然后她又跟他们在一起…我的心，根本就不能承受这样多次的打击的。我也不知道我们是怎样说起我喜欢的那个男生，我这个好朋友就说了“我不想见到这个男生，以免他象其他的男生又喜欢上我而不喜欢你。”我想，正常人听了都会觉得不开心吧？

我自己也不知道我为什么突然间想写这些东西。。可能是假期了。。闷得发慌了..所以才会有这样多有的没的想法吧？

 

Day day with mum ^^

yeah.. i am really happy for the result of Portugal vs North Korea… 7- nil~! omg.. ~! lol.. and.. i get to see C. Ronaldo .. He is jst sooo hot… the first half was kinda bored.. but when come to the 2nd half.. then only got excited.. LOL~! i was chatting with Keat that time.. i told him that Portugal got 4-0.. and he was jst kidding and said they should get 8-0~! and i told him if Portugal got 8-0..i will buy him whatever he want for his lunch..coz that time i thought the game will be like 4-0.. but.. its like 7-0~!! LUCKY is NOT 8-0~! coz he said he is going to ask me pay him lunch at SKY CITY..any way…  i am soo glad i watched this game.. LOL

and.. after this game.. i dont really want to watch others team.. i mean.. i dont get enough sleep coz of watch the game.. and look at my eyes~! can you see the “PANDA” eyes?! oh wait.. may be not.. coz my eyes look like got punch by some one more than “panda” eyes..dont you think?!    

BUT~! this morning i still have to wake up early in the morning..and went to my uncle house for watch the replay of world cup game for Argentina vs Greece.. hmm.. got force to watch actually…i dont like these teams.. my mum want me to company her to watch.. so yeah.. i jst went there till around 11am.. then came back home and ate somehing then OUT again to highbury…

my mum wanted to get something from highbury.. but coz the shop was close.. so we could buy anything.. met May Sze and Tsi Tsi in highbury.. cant believe Tsi Tsi actually walked all the way from her house to highbury.. i guess this is her 2nd time ever in her life.. LOL  Tsi Tsi was tired from walked.. she tried to sit on the side of the things outside the mall.. she was  jumped too high end up sitting in  the soil, i thought her butt would have gotten mold in the soil showing where her ass landed. (thanks may sze ^^) and i think.. her leg kicked at may sze? i not sure.. when i saw her sitting in the soil i was laughed like hell and walked away.. lol.. DUH~ is embrassing man.. JUST KIDDING..

after some random chat, and then went to korean shop with my mum for lunch.. lucky this time she didnt complaint much about the food.. (she always complaint korean food sucks.. >_<) after lunch we jst went home.. ^^ i was soooo tired… so i went to take a nap for around 2 hours till almost 5pm.. when is the time suppose to help my son to get ready for his performance..

YES~! my son have performance for his skul..some thing called Hangi nite i duno what the hell is that.. i jst went there coz he having performance.. ^^ Saw Tsi Tsi alone in another table.. too bad she cant join our table coz of our ticket number is different.. ^^ any way..  my son is soo cute.. i mean handsome.. lol.. this is because the way he wear of the shining tie with white shirt.. hmm.. but he dont really dance well.. compare to when i was in his age.. not only him.. others as well.. i bet jst nz didnt really let them practice as much as what we usually did in Msia.. when i was in his age or younger, i have to keep practice of the dance for competition everyday.. and  what i could remember of my life during primary..is.. DANCE DANCE DANCE DANCE…

Eventho they didnt performance well compare to Malaysia primary school.. but, honestly.. they are sooooo CUTE.. ~! and some of the student have to be waiter or waitress to serve us.. ^^ my son is one of the waiter.. ^^ so sad he didnt serve our table..

Man.. he is so handsome .. dont you think? lol~! JUST KIDDING~!

i am going to city tomolo with may sze.. i was planned to watch Street Dance.. i wanted to watch this when it first came out.. but i was having exam that time.. so i postpone it till now.. BUT GUESS WHAT?! today is the last day of the movie showed… man…~! so damn pissed now.. so tomolo? other than shopping.. STICKER PHOTO~! OMG I HAVENT TAKE STICKER PHOTO FOR AGES~!!! lol.. and tomolo is thursday.. is half price.. so YEAH~! but too bad.. i got work at 4pm.. HAIZ….

 

Feel so bad…

hmm.. i not sure did i mentioned before or not about i have to do the trollies for every tuesday.. and i always complaint about how not fair that only i have to do it but not others gals..because one of our guy workmate changes his shift to others day.. so, every tuesday will not having any guy for doing trollies..

any way, i kept complaint to others that my tuesday supervisor – Kinisi. she never done trolley and keep asked me to do trolley.. and i always complaint her scare dirty.. never done rubish. blah blah.. yeah.. i complaint LOTS about her..

and what made me feel so bad rite now is.. i found out that she had breast cancer before, and she is going to do for another big operaion… that why she cannot go out at nite.. incase she got flu and cannot go for operation.. that why she cannot do hard work.. that why she cannot do the rubbish incase she got infection…

OMG~! MICHELLE TAN~! WHAT ARE YOU DOING NOW?! CANT YOU TRY TO UNDERSTAND WHAT HER SITUATION?!  AND YOU STIL KEEP COMPLAINT ABOUT HER THIS AND THAT.. i really hate myself now…

World Cup Fever ^_^

YEESSSS~!!!! New Zealand drawn with Italy ~!!! what a suprise result to be honest.. ^^ too bad i didnt get the chance to see my workmate naked and run.. LOL kidding~ to be honest, for me.. NZ team is really great for the first time to get into World Cup, oh wait.. not first time..  they did got into world cup back to 28 years ago LOL~ 

I was sooo tired for wait the game start.. so, i went to take a nap for around 1 hour..and my sister almost forgot to wake me up for the game.. after finish nz vs italy game, i went to sleep and wake up this morning again at 6.15am for another game Brazil vs Ivory Coast. To be honest, seriously cant wake up at all~! If Jp didnt missed call me and wake me up.. i bet i will missed the game~! lucky Jp missed call me twice for waked me up to watch these two games.. THANKS Grandpa~!  YES!  so, basicly i just had approx 2 hours sleep yesterday nite..

   Such a shame that CIV lost in the game~! they were soooo rough when come to almost end of the game, and made Kaka got red card~! but thanks god brazil still won the game (3-1) hehe~! too bad that Kaka cant play for the next following game which is vs Portugal but, i like these two team.. so, no matter either Portugal or Brazil win.. i  will be happy for them.. :P

Kaka (Brazil) 

from the brazil team, i like Kaká, the midfielder of the team. hmm..may be coz he is good looking among others? lol~ i know i am.. bit.. hmm… yeah.. lol… but, he is really good player… and stupid CIV just cheated, and made him got a red card~! so sad that he couldnt play for the next game..
  Cristiano Ronaldo  (Portugal)

i like Cristiano Ronaldo from Portugal team.. ^^ he is sooo cool~! haha.. i dont really remember is he good in game or not.. coz i remember last time when i watched the game, he look soo cool~ ^^ and last time is my first time to watch World Cup, dont really know anything bout what is a good player or not… ^^ so.. i will know after watching the game tonite.. ^^

which one more handsome arh? i like both..  

i am going to watch the game tonite 11.30pm Portugal vs North Korea of course i wish Portugal win.. AND i SURE Portugal will win.. ^^

World Cup ~!

Seriously, i am really into world cup for this year…may be i really enjoy the feeling when the team that i support are win.. especially New Zealand got into world cup..too bad Malaysia didnt get in.. if Malaysia get in… for sure i will support Malaysia more than New Zealand one.. ^^ but, i didnt bet on ANY game ler… coz i am a good gal..

and may be this time i got many frens are “World Cup Fever” one.. so we get to talk and chat while we watching the game.. ^^ eating chip with sour cream..(P/s: i know is fat.. but.. it really feel sooo GREAT when you eat that while you watch the game) i really enjoy the feeling sooo much.. but.. i feel soo damn .. FAT.. hahahaha~

also from work place.. so many ppl talked about world cup.. discuss about the team.. which team sucks. which team good..and i just could join  them easily.. lol~ eventho.. i dont really know the name of the team member.. haha. .

last week.. i think is last week lar.. i got exam.. but when NZ played the game vs Slovakia.. i just put down all my notes, and watch the game.. ^^ to be honest, i knew NZ’s team – All White is not that great compare to others popular country.. but, of course.. i hope miracle will happen.. ^^ i still remember, Slovekia scored in the first half round.. and NZ team started kinda give up.. and just kicked the ball to each other team.. and not even try to score..

That time, Hamizan, Wei Kang, Jp, richard,  and Me were like chatting on msn and facebook.. talked about the game while we watched.. all of us thought NZ wont score any.. but, cant believe like last minutes~ when we were giving up for NZ, and NZ score at last minutes~! lol~ we were ike “GOAL!!!!” lol… yeah.. i scream like hell~! even my parent did as well~ love NEW ZEALAND~ 

tonite~ Italy vs New Zealand.. Italy is one of my favourite team.. But, i support New Zealand for this time.. haha.. even though i pretty sure NZ 90% will lost  this game.. lol~ but, i do hope Miracle will happen..LET SEE HOW EH?! tonite 2am.. haiz.. and now is 11pm.. and i  feel sleepy now.. i hope i wont falled in sleep half of the game..

OH YA~! today at work.. my grandpa - Hadi~! he said he buy NZ will win, and he asked me to support “All White” .. even though every one already knew Italy Sure will win in this game later.. but of course, we still support NZ team~ coz we are staying in NZ~ ^^ haha.. A ND AND AND~! he also said.. IF NZ  win for this game, he will naked and run around Northcote..^^ an OLD man want to nake and run around Northcote..~ ^^ CANt WAIT..~~!!! SOOOO LET PRAY NEW ZEALAND WIN~! 1 hour and 14 minutes… for start kick off~! ^^

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Aiyo…

Aiyo…dont want lar.. how come the feeling back again one? should i really stop talking with him?! after found out bad side of him and also he like some one esle.. my feeling already under control one mar.. how come today after know him in another side.. my feeling back again?!

i know is really hard to stop liking a person if you really like him.. even tho i am not that deep into him.. but, still.. i guess i just really more time lor.. or should i stop talking with him ler?! these days we chat almost everyday.. and i dont feel any things as well.. talked about world cup..talked about workmate.. and today talked about his interested… and i found out he just like the type of guy that i like.. except he is emo, smoke, never reply txt or msn, used to be a play boy.. etc..

but, i really like guy play instrutment.. very very much..and he showed me all the art things that he make.. yeah.. he showed me all the photo ..... man.. there are just sooo cute.. i really like it soo much.. i asked him made one for me.. but he change topic.. i asked him to give me one of my favourite.. he said everything that he made have his memory in it.. so.. yeah.. i think i am jealous of those “memory”  and i also curious what are these “memory” that let him made so many of the thing.. hmm…

i know.. he like another gal.. i should stop my feeling toward him.. but.. why am i jaelous on this kind of thing that i not even know what is about?! can i stop being fool?! New Zealand weather is getting colder and colder… but.. i really dont want my heart feeling cold as well……..

Son’s Birthday (26.05.10)

26.05.10 is my son’s birthday~! he is 9th this year.. man.. feel soo old now..i still remember he was baby.. and.. when i went out with my first ex.. i have to bring him along as well.. and i always got complaint that i care about my son more than him.. ^^ and now.. he is already 9 years old~! and he is a FATTY just same as his mum.. ME ^^

Dont ask me why, coz i dunno why Keat added my son on Facebook and tag him as his Son as well.. so.. in my son facebook, his parents are me and Keat.. but Keat and me are sister brother.. OMG~ sound sooo wrong rite? Sister and Brother having a Son~ LOL~

SO~! Since Keat is his “father”, of course he have to buy something for his son rite? i didnt ask him to.. but, Keat just want to buy.. so… yeah.. but~! he duno what to buy.. and he want me to choose for him as well.. and also my family.. so.. i have to buy 6 presents…this is just sooo hard to choose 6 different presents at once.. but is ok.. as long my son is happy~ ^^

So, this afternoon.. went to city meet with Flavia coz she finish class around 1pm.. and may sze finish hers like 2pm..I grabbed Flavia went to bank to made some payment.. then went to print shop to print some notes out.. and also went to 3 dollars shop for helped my sister brother to choose some my son’s present for them.. lol.. i know is cheap.. but my sister brother didnt work. so it is fair enough rite?

after got something for my son, Keat arrived.. KEAT LATE AGAIN~ lol.. but cant blame him.. coz he cant find any parking in the City.. especially is lunch time..So, when Keat arrived, may sze already finish her class… hahaha~ just on time~! so we just went to Kubic for Lunch..Flavia was hungry, and she asked for BIG meal.. so.. we thought Kubic is kinda BIG..so might will feed her.. haha..

as usual, everytime meet Flavia.. we will talked dodgy topic, playing her new bra..and also the unbrella.. again.. but this time.. we actually talked about dodgy topic infront of a guy.. – KEAT. but not like keat mind any way.. he join our conversation as well.. ^^ (P/s: YEAH!! brother!!! *five*) hahahaha~ i love eat Kubic’s Sticky Chicken Rice this is because Keat brought me there and i tried his Sticky Chicken Rice and i love it after that..so, we ordered the same thing for our lunch.. and~! i ate more than him.. AGAIN~ F***!!

After lunch, Flavia and me wanted t o go Starbucks.. ^^ yeah.. we just finish our lunch.. and we still wanted Starbucks.. :P and then saw Julie alone came to Starbucks..so.. we just asked her to join us along.. And, my dear Brother KEat.. found a gal that he interested worked in Starbucks.. and keep chat with me about that gal.. lol.. but this is all good.. something that really pissed me off was~! this guy, is so tall.. but his weight is LESS than 60kg~! and you know what?!! my arm look same size as his tight..~! and~! my hand look manlier than him… >_< look at the photo.. the pink strip shirt is my arm.. and the grey pants is his tight.. not much different rite? haiz…

After some random chat, flavia went to met her fren, and left Julie, may sze, Keat and me continue looked for my son present.. First, we went to JB- hi fi for looking something for my son..Keat bought him Justien Bieber CD.. then went to Sapro looking T- shirt to let my son wear for tonite.. is soo funny that Julie and Keat didnt really know well about my FAT son.. so, they went to Children department looking for nice t shirt and jeans... but May sze and me went to teenagers department.. and.. we actually got the biggest size for my son.. my son should be proud of himself.. coz, we actually 4 ppls just choosing his t shirt.. and just for him man.. gosh..i wish i could be him.. lol any way, we saw a nice “man” bodyshape.. and look at may sze~! she look sooo HAP SAP~ LOL and look me.. look soo IDIOT.

May sze went to class after that, then left me, Keat and julie.. we went to a game shop in Metro.. and bought naruto poster, simpson bubble head.. ^^ geez.. cost me.. hmm.. quite lots…after finish bought everything for my son.. i just went home and helped my mum to ready for my son’s birthday party..

i bought him a Ben 10 birthday cake, and when we arrived our house.. my relative arrived .. and start eating..oh, my son suppose to invite his fren for his birthday party, but he dunno where is his fren house.. and my dad couldnt pick his fren up…and he cried.. AWWH~! man.. when i saw him cried.. i felt soooooo bad on him… haiz.. eventho is not my real son.. but stil, my heart feel pain when i saw him cried.. >_< and he hide himself into his room.. and didnt want to come out for dinner or cake..of course, when i saw him like that,  i dont feel eating as well.. so, i went to his room and try to cheer him up..^^

guess what?! is Wednesday.. and is my turn to wash the dishes.. and..~ 18 ppls using sooo many dishes.. and i have to wash all of them.. >_<haiz.. after finish wash all the dishes.. is time eating cake.. ^^ and photo time~!