Friday's disease

This is really stupid that i will always have a bad mood on friday.. after seeing him… yup~ i always see him on friday.. like around half and hour.. but this half and hour is enough for me to get Friday’s disease from him.

i thought i already starting moving on…
i thought i’m not thinking of him as much as before already…

but.. yesterday… i saw him walked into ww (woolworth) at the time he start working. what i did after was..
i pretend i didnt saw him..
i pretend i busy…
i know he look at me..
i know he try to say hi..
but.. all i did was..
ignored him..

so.. we didnt talked till i finish work.. and even when i walked passed him.. i look down.. and pretend i didnt see him..

we got less than 0.01 second of eyes contact..
but, i looked at others place as quickly as possible..
i dunno he notice that or not? or just myself….

i really want to stop this stupid acting……
why cant i just back to before??
i feel i am soo immature…………
but.. i really want to stop liking him………

few days ago, chat with his best fren..his best fren told me quite lots of his things.. i notice that he is really not my type.. i like guy to be real hardworking, good in study, outgoing, compliance with commitments, trustworthy… etc..

but, what i know from his fren is.. he is not hardworking, he played more than study, he did tried his best to compliance with commitments.. but.. most of the time.. failed.. he is not trustworthy.. AT ALL~ he and his best fren suppose running a project.. but, now only his best fren the one who working on the project.. and him.. just keep play play play play everyday and nothing else…

talked with keat just now.. he just reach home.. he got sick of being his gal’s fren Psychiatrist.. and he complaint that he having headache from his fren…feel so bad for him.. he got his own problem.. and still trying to solve others problem..and i cant even help him anything.. apart of listen on his problem.. he notice that i am in the bad mood as well.. and he keep asking me what happen… blah blah.. i was not going to tell him anything since he alrady having headache from his fren.. but, he keep asking for like sooo many times..so.. i jst told him everything bout my feeling..

know what? the more i said.. the more i cried.. my tears like a broken Water-tap, cant even turn it off…i dunno why am i crying for? for dylan? or my stress? i have no idea..

-3.45am-